I'm a mom of three awesome crumb snatchers ~ current ages: 15, 11 & 9. They are my universe.

 

I find myself in the middle of things that I don't belong in the middle of quite often. Trouble seems to find me wherever I go. I'm a soldier, a patriot, a humanitarian, a poet, a writer, an artist, a thinker, an eclecticist, a psycho, a lover, a fighter & evidentally a hopeless romantic at times. (I know ~ yuck…lol)  I'm usually not the “girly” , giddy or love struck type so to find this out about myself at this point in my life is sort of ~ well… odd, I guess. Disturbing even…

I can be your best friend or your absolute worst enemy. Hurt someone I hold dear to my heart and a bloodbath will be sure to follow. I am not at all squeamish and although I suffer from residual Catholicism, seeking just revenge is not something I would feel guilty about or lose sleep over.
 

 

I carry a book of madness around with me where I can write my random thoughts throughout the day. There is no rhyme or reason to this book but somehow it makes perfect sense and without it, I would be royally fucked.

I am a random person… a colorful person, as my 9 year old daughter calls me. I'm a nut job, a head case, a fucking loon ~ She once told me “Mommy, you're not crazy, you're colorful”. I thought that was the most wonderful way I'd ever heard it put. lol
 

I am a Recovering Catholic… Those of you who went to Catholic school know what this means. I do not believe in organized religion at this point in my life ~ I believe them all to be just different forms of business .

And this just in… Pope Puts On Concert To Raise Money To Pimp Out His Pope-mobile…
 

I do pray…

 

  I have good morals and perform random acts of kindness as a safety net to get into heaven;) lol No seriously… I am a do gooder when it comes to that shit. I surprise a lot of people because they usually see me as a hard ass but I do have a soft spot and a weakness for the needy.
 

I've been called temperamental by many but fuck them… We're fine with our assortment of moods! 

I'm the sort of person who can laugh at herself… I know I have many faults and embrace my imperfections… They are what make me the “Colorful” person I am…

Oh, and yes, I do curse a lot… If it bothers you~ kindly hit your back button FUCKER…  

 Been called a shoe whore but this is true so what can I really say about that???  Can't explain it… It just is what it is…

 

On the subject of love, lust, romance… well I'm actually considering swearing men off altogether and just becoming a fucking lesbian. Currently I feel I have been seduced by the devil himself… (not really) He is actually the yin to my yang…  though he is unreachable & therefore my daily heartache…

He shines like a diamond in the dust… If he could only see how beautiful he truly is and let his guard down just enough to allow me to love him the way he ought to be loved… If he would only see that “I” am the yin to “HIS” yang…That there is no perfect time for love… If only…

Ahhhh, life would be blissful.

 
I've led a very turbulent life so far so during my quest for peace & balance, I'm hoping to lay some of my own demons to rest. My insomnia is getting the better of me as of late and although I CHOOSE not to sleep for fear of what I face in my nightmares… I long to close my eyes without anxiousness and wake up calmly… peacefully… rested. One can dream even if she doesn't sleep, can she not?